Turns out that despite the inability to go to movie theaters for the majority of this year, my movie watching rate hasn’t been affected as dramatically as I feared! I do sure miss the hell out of those big screens, though.

Slow is smooth. Smooth is fast.
Turns out that despite the inability to go to movie theaters for the majority of this year, my movie watching rate hasn’t been affected as dramatically as I feared! I do sure miss the hell out of those big screens, though.
Let’s not beat around the bush: 2019 damn near killed me. It was a tough year on a personal level. One could certainly also point to the world at large etc. etc. but sometimes it’s comforting to be distracted (or mortally threatened) by what’s directly in front of you. So 2019 wasn’t great, but that’s okay. Some years are up and some years are down. That’s why we play the game.
But alas, dear reader, what this also means is that I’m not really in the mood for a best of/year in review post. That’s not to say 2019 wasn’t without its beautiful moments, it’s just that everything might be a little too fresh. The preponderance of “Best of Decade” lists being thrown around also feels premature—what say we give this sucker some time to sink in?
So where does that leave us? I don’t know what kind of creature 2020 will turn out to be but thus far it’s been pleasant enough. So I promise to keep slugging away. There will be at least one 2019 movies post because I’ve actually compiled the data. And yes, I promise I’ll post more than once this year.
Welp, another year in the books. Posting this a little late after recovering from a whirlwind trip through India and Asia in January—more about that later (i.e. probably in 2019’s review 😅)—but I’m certainly not gonna pass up the opportunity to celebrate what turned out to be a great year indeed. It’s insane to think that this decade is almost over, that I’ve been living in New York for so long etc. etc. but time don’t stop so let’s get on to the things! I’ll do a separate post for 2018’s Top Movie rankings but otherwise here are some of my favorite things from 2018:
Celebrating Anthony’s birthday at least three times in January, the treasure trove of science fiction artifacts in the Museum of Pop in Seattle, the croissants at Arsicault Bakery in Scott’s neighborhood in San Francisco, the single burrito I had at La Taqueria this year, Alex and Amy’s breakfast wedding in Pasadena, packing up the Crystal Lake house with my family, seeing “In the Heights” at Prairie Ridge, driving an actual bulldozer in Vegas at Kishan’s bachelor party, performing best man duties at Kishan and Elizabeth’s picturesque Sedona wedding, the legacy of Anthony Bourdain, my three-day solo retreat at Bard with an extra large pizza, the Far Rockaway beach trip with Ashleigh and Mackenzie and crew, any visit to Spicy Village and/or the Up Stairs Bar with Jing, every afternoon or evening spent at the beautiful new Domino Park, streaming play-throughs of Borderlands: The Pre-Sequel and the Overcooked! games with Ben, Key Bar drinks with Son, every Ghibli Fest or MoMA movie screening I made it to, Michael Swanwick asking for a round of memorial applause for Gardner Dozois at his KGB reading, the brief and wondrous life of trivia nights at Golden Years, our second straight year of Honey Deuce cocktails at the U.S. Open, seeing the column of science fiction authors’ autographs at Powell’s Books in Portland, attending the New York premieres of “Eighth Grade” and “Mid90s” with Jenny, any sandwich from Faicco’s, the surreal moment when I found myself doing tequila shots with a well-known author and a famous actress, dinners at Sushi Noz and Decoy with Felicia, any karaoke or movie night with the Stanford writer crew, any dive bar in the Lower East Side, new Thanksgiving traditions in Philadelphia with Val, Thomas, Clarissa and Max (including my first Escape Room experience), the incredible stagecraft and special effects of “Harry Potter and the Cursed Child,” Christmas at Mom and Dad’s new SoCal house with Aunt Crystal,
Olivia Colman in “The Favourite,” Lana Condor in “To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before,” Steven Yuen in “Burning,” Zoey Deutch in “Set It Up,” Michelle Yeoh and Awkwafina in “Crazy Rich Asians,” Raffey Cassidy in “Vox Lux”, the power of croquettes in “Shoplifters”, Michael B. Jordan and nearly everything else about “Black Panther,” Carrie Mulligan in “Wild Life,” Ethan Hawke in “First Reformed,” Cynthia Erivo in “Bad Times at the El Royale,” Viola Davis in “Widows,” the score for “First Man,” the score for “Annihilation,” the first half hour of “Sorry to Bother You,” the helicopter crash finale in “Mission: Impossible Fallout,”
the “Metalhead” episode of “Black Mirror,” Brian Tyree Henry and Lakeith Stanfield and all of “Atlanta” season 2, Jodie Comer and Sandra Oh in “Killing Eve,” most of “The Haunting of Hill House,” the workman-like precision of “Better Call Saul,” the short episode lengths of Sam Esmail’s “Homecoming,” the “Diner Lobster” sketch from SNL, “Aggretsuko,”
“What it Means When a Man Falls From the Sky” by Lesley Nneka Arimah, “How to Write an Autobiographical Novel” by Alexander Chee, any story by Karen Joy Fowler, “Triumph of the City” by Edward Glaeser, “Thrill Me”
by Benjamin Percy, “Stories of Your Life and Others” by Ted Chiang, “The Gone World” by Tom Sweterlitsch, the short stories of Gene Wolfe, this piece on how to be an artist by Jerry Saltz,
“Delicate” by Taylor Swift, “God’s Plan” by Drake, “Lost in Japan” by Shawn Mendes, Childish Gambino’s “This is America” video, “Nobody” by Mitski, “Everybody Wants to Rule the World” by Tears for Fears (you know why), this Pomplamoose cover of “Make Me Feel,” “Thank U, Next” by Ariana Grande,
this episode of “The Daily” about North and South Korea, The Dave Chang Show, the Cast Royale podcast, every postgame show of the newly renamed Chicago Audible podcast, the Coin Talk podcast, the Robin Hood app, Swift and Node.js courses on Udemy, working afternoons at any Spacious location,
Tom Brady’s “Tom Vs. Time” series on Facebook Watch, Doug Pederson’s play calling and the Philly Special in Super Bowl LII, this Cubs walk-off grand slam, any Chicago Bears play with Khalil Mack on the field, jet sweeps with Taylor Gabriel and Tarik Cohen and any other crazy offensive formation, any pass not overthrown by Mitchell Trubisky, Club Dub, Matt Nagy, Matt Nagy, Matt Nagy.
It sucked.
Honestly it still hurts to think about. We certainly didn’t play our best but this season sure as shit didn’t deserve to end the way many feared it might: on a missed Cody Parkey field goal. I spent most of this season trying to give Parkey the benefit of the doubt but it was clear that our kicking game was one of our major weaknesses.
What’s crazy to me is that if Parkey had actually made the kick it would have been the ultimate redemption story. What’s crazy to me is that icing the kicker actually worked for once–Parkey nailed the initial kick he tried right after the Eagles’ planned timeout. What’s crazy to me is that on the real kick the ball hits the upright at exactly the right angle and speed to fall onto the crossbar, at exactly the right angle and speed to bounce backwards and not forwards. What’s crazy to me is that replay eventually showed an Eagles player might have barely tipped the ball on the way up, which (infuriatingly) makes it harder to know how much Parkey’s to blame. And the final kicker (sorry, had to do it): Robbie Gould was at the game, watching from the stands. You can’t make this stuff up.
There were ample missed opportunities for the Bears–the three red zone trips which resulted only in field goals, the failed two point conversion, the second-to-last 4th quarter offensive possession that netted negative yards, the short punt and defensive failures that enabled the Eagles’ game-winning touchdown drive–but somehow at the end we still had a chance. With the game on the line Trubisky actually delivered a game-winning field goal drive; we just didn’t get the field goal.
Never has the single-elimination format of the NFL playoffs felt more cruel (though come to think of it, that playoff loss to the Panthers in 2006 felt terrible too). Having such a fun, fantastic season end so abruptly was a real gut punch. I watched the entire game streaming on my phone early in the morning from Shanghai, which only made it all the more surreal–though maybe a bit more bearable. And next year will only be tougher: we won’t have Vic Fangio, we’ll be playing a first place schedule and every team will have better scouting on us.
The silver lining is that this actually does feel like the start of something. The Bears significantly outperformed expectations this year, and we’ve got plenty of young talent that should only get better. Arrow trending up!
My long-held, not entirely accurate reputation as an Apple fanboy might be in jeopardy: other than AirPods (which, btw, still don’t stay securely in my ears) I don’t own a single current gen Apple device at the moment. I’m still happily rocking my three-year-old iPhone 6S Plus, and while the devices that feel the slowest in daily usage are my iPad and my Apple Watch the one I’m most likely to upgrade next is the oldest: my 2011 (2011!!!) MacBook Air. The Air still runs surprisingly well but now that I’m unable to upgrade it to the latest Mac OS I think the end is nigh.
Here’s the aging profile of my current Apple loadout, from oldest device to newest device:
I was really hoping the new MacBook Air would present a clear choice for my next computer but its corresponding new higher price just confuses Apple’s entire lineup. Why are there now three vaguely differentiated product lines—the MacBook, the new MacBook Air and the 13″ MacBook Pro—all at basically the same price point? And we might as well throw in the newest (and also more expensive) iPad Pro now that Apple’s started comparing it directly to other laptops.
Who will bring order to this chaos? Who will tell me where to throw the money??
I hadn’t really considered the schedule when the season started but the Bears are actually matched up against George R.R. Martin’s Jets this week. George has been lamenting the fact that his rookie QB is prone to turnovers, which will hopefully play right into the hands of a Bears defense that has been out of sorts in our past two losses. Simply put we’ve forgotten how to tackle and gave up too many big plays on both defense and special teams that have cost us victories against the Dolphins and the Patriots. Trubisky is still showing an uncomfortable tendency to be INACCURATE AF but what’s more concerning is he continues to throw right into coverages when we’re in the red zone; opposing defenses have dropped more passes than they’ve intercepted, meaning his stats should actually be worse. And yet, the offense kept us in the game against the Pats despite our other two phases performing poorly.
Our division is way too tough this year to think that losing these past two games won’t hurt us but I guess there is consolation in the fact that we’ve been close in every contest. I like the culture that Nagy seems to be building so let’s hope the tough losses end up making the team more resilient down the road.
So after our Bears barely eked out a victory in game 3 against the lowly Arizona Cardinals I was actually feeling pretty apprehensive about the rest of the season. Instead of showing growth Trubisky had easily his worst game this year—numerous inaccurate throws, multiple turnovers, and worst of all a complete inability to read a defense and improvise when a play breaks down.
And then game 4 happened. The Bears demolished the Buccaneers 48-10, producing the most deliriously amazing first half of a Bears game I have ever seen. This was the performance they needed, not only for the fans but for themselves—almost every play Nagy called was delightfully unstoppable, and for the first time our staunch defense got to wreak havoc with a healthy lead.
No, I’m not crazy enough to think that throwing six touchdowns against a pretty weak defense proves Mitch is the real thing. But in terms of a positive signal and a confidence-building experience it doesn’t get much better. If the offense can continue to improve and everyone stays healthy we actually have a chance of being one of the more complete teams in the league.
But there’s a lot more football to play, obviously. There will be more ups and downs. And yes I’m worried the early bye week this year might interrupt our momentum but boy does it feel good to go into a bye with a blowout win.
Inspired by the fact that George R.R. Martin blogs about the Giants and Jets on a regular basis, I’m gonna try to post some regular thoughts on the Bears week to week.
Our beloved Chicago Bears had more hype than normal going into this season—the hiring of an aggressive young coach in Matt Nagy, a slew of free agent signings, a decent new draft class—and then they went for broke and traded for Khalil Mack, one of the premiere defensive players in the league. Against my better judgment I found myself impossibly hyped for this past Sunday’s prime time opener against our archrivals the Packers.
Deep down I was still just praying for a close game—I knew the Bears were probably too inexperienced across the board to win such a tough opener on the road—but when we led 17-0 at halftime and Aaron Rodgers had sustained what looked like a season-ending injury I was ready to believe anything: we’d scored a touchdown on our opening drive, there were more offensive playmakers on the field wearing Bears uniforms than I can ever remember seeing and Nagy’s creative play-calling had me literally laughing out loud in delight at times. Most incredibly, Khalil Mack looked like he was worth twice the steep price we’d paid for him.
And then, as everyone knows, the bottom fell out. Rodgers came back in the most dramatic fashion possible (literally playing on one leg) and the Packers won the game 24-23. It was excruciating to witness but there were so many missed opportunities to close out this game that I do feel like it just wasn’t meant to be. The innovative play-calling disappeared and we got way too conservative on offense. The Packers adjusted to our pass rush. Trubisky thought he was a running back instead of a quarterback. Our defense couldn’t tackle any receiver after a catch, or catch any ball thrown directly at them.
But ultimately it’s okay. We were closer than anyone thought we’d be in our first game of the year. We’re in such a tough division that even making the playoffs will be tough, so what matters this year is that the team gets better every week. Yes, it stings extra that the way we lost only adds to the Packers’ and Rodgers’ legacy. Yes, I’m worried about the depth of Nagy’s playbook and the lack of experience overall. Yes, the jury’s still out on Trubisky as a franchise quarterback. But there were also enough encouraging moments to think the potential is real. Let’s see what happens next week against the Seahawks.
Watched this on Saturday and I’m still thinking about it.
Thanks for introducing me to the song, Casey.
Jeff VanderMeer’s post Thoughts on the Writing Process: Optimal Conditions and Tips is one of my favorite things I’ve read recently. It’s so pragmatic and honest, suffused with such a generous attitude of self-care and understanding for the writer. I love how much emphasis he places on doing everything possible to enable the magic of the subconscious storyteller.